But I am getting ahead of myself. Let me first provide some background history on why and how I became entangled in this great illusion.
I was born Catholic and baptized, but because of my parent’s atheism, I never received any solid instruction and guidance in Christianity. I had never met anyone whose Christian faith was an inspiration to me, and was left to believe that the truth of the Gospel and Jesus’ story was for the old generation, the old folks that were sitting in the churches. Confused as I was trying to find my way in the dark labyrinth of the New-Age bazaar and throughout the many years of involvement in the New Age movement, I have always believed and prayed to my Father as a personal God and held Jesus in my heart, even though at times I have been quite lukewarm towards Him.
I have never been able to relate to the core New-Age dogma that denies the existence of a personal God, whilst insisting that the universe itself is God. New Agers declare that God is impersonal, an abstraction, a force out there permeating all things in the universe and, as man is part of the universe, man is also god. We are given many alternatives for the name of God, but they are all impersonal: a Presence, a Vibration, an Energy Force, Universal Law, Universal Mind, Cosmic Consciousness, Divine Presence, Eternal Reality, Real Presence, Creative Force, Cosmic One, etc.
However my experience of God is not that of an impersonal abstract force, but that of a loving Father. He knows each and everyone of us better than we know ourselves. God, in His grace, even sometimes answers my prayer before I ask. “It shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear” (Isaiah 65:24). This verse provides us with an incredible picture of our Lord’s love for us. “Lord, you pour out blessings and lovingkindness on me before I can even ask. And you offer more than I could even conceive of asking.” Psalm 21
Father God is Spirit, but He is also a Person. It is important to understand that Father God is an actual Person seated on His throne in heaven. He is not a formless, ethereal, impersonal spirit. God has created us in His own image; we are persons and God is also a Person. From Genesis to Revelation, the Bible encourages us to have a personal relationship with our heavenly Father God, which is similar in ways to a child having a personal relationship with a loving earthly father.
There was a man in Haiti, pulled out of the rubbles alive, an incredible four weeks after the earthquake.
He was able to share that he saw “a man dressed in a white coat” who would give him water. The CNN people were joking about this, saying he was delirious, but nobody can explain how he survived that long without any water. Three to five days is the maximum time a human being can survive without water, yet this man survived for four weeks, completely trapped in a hole among the rubble with no outside connection. Can you imagine spending four weeks like this, hearing the bulldozer coming closer? I think he was probably praying constantly and God (the man in the white coat) gave him water and kept him alive. For he will give his angels charge over thee, To keep thee in all thy ways. (12) They shall bear thee up in their hands, Lest thou dash thy foot against a stone. (Ps.91:11)
In recent years, I have learned to turn to God when I am troubled and when I feel lost and in pain. When I run out of my own strength and abilities to resolve inner conflicts, I ask God to take care of it for me. When I realize how weak and hopeless I am, I pray to God and His strength is made perfect in my weakness.
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
The more I humble myself to God, the more He reveals to me His tender loving care and forgiveness of my shortcomings. The more I take refuge in God, the more I find the strength to stand and the courage to dispel darkness in myself.
In times of crisis, after much struggle and looking for the way out, when in that hopeless moment, I completely surrender to God in desperation and say to Him: “Lord, I give up! I am running out of resources. I give myself completely to You. I put myself in Your care — please embrace me and sooth the pain of my soul”. In that moment, when the surrender is total and sincere, I feel His mighty presence, His care and His love as He mercifully washes all my trouble away, cleanses me of my sorrow, removes the darkness, and makes me feel I am His beloved child. His comforting presence is truly amazing and healing. This really is nothing short of a miracle! And this is always there available for each and every one of us.
But as for me, I am like a green olive-tree in the house of God: I trust in the lovingkindness of God for ever and ever. Psalm 52:8
The more afflicted and the more troubled I am, the closer to God I become. There is no other way to turn, no other therapy. He is the ultimate refuge. As I witness within myself this relationship, I wonder, “Could it be that God is bringing affliction and great trials to the world so that we may draw closer to Him? Could it be that God is using the darkness of this world to challenge us to find Him in the midst of pains and sorrows?
Could it be that when we have exhausted all human abilities to effectively respond and resolve the crisis, there is nothing left to do but to fall on our knees, plead for help and pray?
“Therefore I say unto you, All things whatsoever ye pray and ask for, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.” Mark.11:24:
If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatsoever ye will, and it shall be done unto you. John 15:7
And this is the boldness which we have toward him, that, if we ask anything according to his will, he heareth us: and if we know that he heareth us whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions which we have asked of him.1 John 5:14-15
The Luciferian master plan cannot succeed unless people accept that there is no God who loves and cares for them. For many years I was not able to discern and see that my dear Lord I was talking to and praying to was, in fact, quite in opposition to all things New-Age!